I want to go look for job. I seriously got no money. Papa cant give me money for this month. And what makes you think mama will give me money also?.. I got my own needs too. I need to buy clothes other than school's pocket money..

My mum's mad at me bcos i didnt teman her to Tan Tock Seng to hantar nenek.
But that's not the reason to be mad at me.
I dont understand her sometimes..
Now she's blaming me for my attitude cos i did not inform her that im going to nenek house.
I forgot abt it. I swear. Only if she knew..
Ohh well, maybe she's angry with her husband and throw her tantrums at me?
Maybe.. Maybe..

No one knows what im going thru..
I may look happy or i dont care attitude.
But deep down, no one knows my feelings..
My heart's shattered. My parents dont want me anymore.
My dad wants me to go back to my mum.
My mum wants me to go back to my dad.
What have i done wrong??
I've been crying for the pass few days..
When i think abt it, i'll smoke.
Im stress do you know that?

Maybe whatever people's point of view regarding budak hanyut is true,
"Budak-budak hanyut semuanya datang dari keluarga yang hancur".
But im not hanyut, so Im not in their catagory. Am I??



Tears are falling down my cheecks as i am typing this.
Co'mon Zila.
Cheer up! :'(